As I lay here and write this I want you to know how much I love you. I want you to know how much I love you. I am sorry so very sorry for the last few months int the ways I have treated you, which you have not desereved.
I know youre thinking I’m just saying this but I do mean it from the very, very bottom of my heart. You are the most kindess, gentleness personal I’ve ever known. And I wouldn’t change you one bit. I knew the first time I seen you I was in love with you. When you turned around to say hi to everyone and smiled. Yu got my eye and I knew it. Then the courage you took to introduce yourself like you did I was WOW’d. And I’ll never forget the night we went out. You let me get sweet tato fries 🙂 extra. Then when it was cold you opened your jacket and put your arm around me. then the goodbye kiss how I did not want it to end. And I still dont want it to. Do you remember the night? Do you think about it like I do?
So I think about our goodtimes alot. And not the bad ones. Like the ballgames, just laying in bed, the holidays & house sitting. The first time we made love. But yes I do know we have had have our problems and I thought maybe me working again might make them better but made them worse. Or shall I say me. I know I have said mean, nasty & ugly things to you & I am promising this that I do not want to be that away. I have noticed my behavior is out of control of it again because I want to be the Her Name deleted: No one remembers Her Name you fell in love with. I will hold on to you at nights, snuggle up to you in bed during a movie. youre who I want to grow old with. And walk along a beach with or make snow agels with. Or who I need a shoulder to cry on I want it to be yours not anyone else’s.
If need be we can go to therapy together. The reason why I didn’t want to go at first was because I didn’t want to say anything to hurt you but me being me has done that. But like I said. I’m going to fight for you because I love you and I’ve never fought for something so much.
I love you Troy Boy,
Love, Her name deleted forever from my known world